What happens when one generation passes away and it becomes your season as the next generation?
How do you or how did you respond to that? What does that look like?
I'm hitting that time right now in my life. I don't want to be here but I have no choice. I can't stop life from happening. It takes it natural course whether we are ready for it or not.
2013 has brought a boat load of changes in my life. It basically has turned life on it's head.
December 2012 I was working a part time job, had my children in public school and just living with regular Mom life stuff.
My son was a senior in high school so I was anticipating working through the rest of the school year with all the activities and emotions that your graduating children bring to a schedule. Okay I can work through that.
Then my daughter asked to finish the second half of 6th grade at home, becoming a new homeschooler.. That was going to be a change but okay we'll add that to the equation. I knew I had my work cut out for me. I was excited. at the opportunity
But 2013 had hardly even started and life decided to move in.
My mother, at the age of 83, was diagnosed with colon cancer, stage IV,
My life had changed drastically in a matter of days and I was devastated. Everything had officially turned on it's head.
Let me share it has not been an easy transition. Things drastically changed and my head was in a spin as I was trying to take all the information in about Mom. First it was just tests are being ran because she was out of breathe and then the next day the news hit. It was cancer, stage 4.
Emotions soared through the ceiling. Tears flowed and catching my breathe was all I could concentrate on.
Breath in.......breath out.
How did I get to this place in my life so soon? Where did the time go? Which direction do I go now, what do I do? The questions poured in a matter of seconds. After remembering to catch my breath, then came the answers.
Living life as a christian and leaning on the Lord does not always make things easy, life still happens. We are still human and emotions hit us the same way, but the difference I have found is that I have come to learn to trust and lean hard on the Lord. If I did not I would be lost, to my family, my children, my husband, to myself and to God.
Mom is still with us on the road to recovery and the story is a journey I'm taking this year. There's been struggles, heartaches but there have also been a bountiful of blessings. In all of this there is God and I'm resting in the fact that He will carry me through.